Caring doesn’t sometimes lead to misery. It always does.
People are like bubbles: elegant and complex but also fragile. In their own little self-contained worlds, fighting battles to stay aloft. Resisting contact with the thought they might break; bending and reflecting their environment. And in the end no matter how virtuous or devious their flight, all doomed to the same fate. (at UA - Sixth Street Garage)
Mirror Lake reflection.
Aren’t you, like me, hoping that some person, thing, or event will come along to give you that final feeling of inner well-being you desire? Don’t you often hope: ‘May this book, idea, course, trip, job, country or relationship fulfill my deepest desire.’ But as long as you are waiting for that mysterious moment you will go on running helter-skelter, always anxious and restless, always lustful and angry, never fully satisfied. You know that this is the compulsiveness that keeps us going and busy, but at the same time makes us wonder whether we are getting anywhere in the long run. This is the way to spiritual exhaustion and burn-out. This is the way to spiritual death.
Henri J.M. Nouwen, Life of the Beloved: Spiritual Living in a Secular World (via feellng)
John Conway first theorized that it would be impossible to create a forever-expanding universe using these rules, which was proven wrong by a team at MIT, creating the “glider gun,” which is featured in the third gif.
Since then, thanks to computers, people all over the world have added new designs to the database, creating amazingly complex designs.
For example Andrew J. Wade created a design which replicates itself every 34 million generations! Furthermore it is also a spaceship (permanently moving pattern) and not only that, it was also the first spaceship that did not travel purely diagonally or horizontally/vertically! These types of spaceships are now appropriately named Knightships.
The simulation has some interesting properties, for example it has a theoretical maximum speed information can travel. Or simply, light speed - as that is the limit in our own universe. The limit is set to 1 cell per generation - after all how can you create something further than 1 cell away in one generation if you can only effect your immediate neighbours? And yet you can get things like the ‘stargate’ (Love the name, huge SG fan here.) which allows a space ship to travel 11 cells in just 6 generations.
Some smart people have even designed calculators, prime number generators and other incredibly complex patterns.
You can create your own patterns here: http://www.bitstorm.org/gameoflife/
All gifs were made from this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C2vgICfQawE
I don’t know how to be myself. It’s like I’m permanently outside myself. Like, like you could push your hands straight through me if you wanted to. And I can see the type of man I want to be versus the type of man I actually am and I know that I’m doing it but I’m incapable of what needs to be done. I’m like Pinocchio, a wooden boy. Not a real boy. And it kills me.